So a few weeks ago, I read a post from Pat's blog about 'are you sure you want to start a startup?'
Pat says that when leave your 9-5 job, all you'll be able to think about is your startup. It will take over your entire life. You'll never feel satisfied; you'll always be striving, there will never be an end to it.
It was a light bulb moment. Because I work a 9-5 and already, all I can think about is my future startup, even though it doesn't even exist yet! When I'm not at work, I'm thinking about it every minute, learning about it daily, making plans constantly.
This extends to all areas of my life; I put in the effort with my day job too, with my health, with my quality of life, with my finances, you name it. I'm just obsessive about how I spend my time while I'm here and the impact I want to make. I can't turn it off, it's who I am.
What I think Pat was describing, wasn't what it was like to start a business, but instead the character of an entrepreneur.
I wondered if it was just me, but I opened up to a friend who has found great success working for a company (not his) recently, and he opened up in return.
Starting my next thing is all I ever think about. At night, when I can't sleep, that's what's on my mind. I've started businesses before; some have made money but not enough for a living, others have flat-out failed. But I've learned, and besides, that's how it works with people like us, right? We'll never be satisfied. We will always be striving for more.
People like us, we already suffer the obsessive side effects of having a startup without the rewards. So I just have to go for it... I'm not sure there is any other path.
If my next idea fails, that won't change my character. If I stay in a day job forever, that won't turn this thing off in my brain. I've got this in me now. And when the time is right, I must act.