When I follow my fate

makers Jan 2, 2021
I’ve been crying a lot when I finish my videos. I just get so happy, that I start crying. I am just so thankful for being able to do this that I just burst into tears. I can not believe this is my job and I just got to do that and I get to go do it again. This is the best job in the world, I’m so happy. - David Dobrik

When I moved to Austin back in August, I burst into spontaneous tears every single day while driving to Zilker Park. The feeling was, omg, this is LIFE and I am HERE and I am SO LUCKY and how do I deserve such a beautiful existence? It all overwhelmed me.

Music sounded better. Food tasted spectacular. Every time I got on a Zoom meeting at work, people would tell me I was glowing. Strangers would stop me on the street and ask for my number. I felt incredibly alive and unstoppable.

Then it stopped.

In September, I stopped happy-crying. No one told me I looked radiant, no one stopped me on the streets. I grew less happy, and then sad. I thought I'd gotten high off of moving to Austin, and it was over.

BUT NO! I figured it out today! I've been sparkling again lately because I have purpose again!

I moved to Austin to follow my fate.

Every day felt spectacular because I was starting a life of purpose. My soul had been quietly speaking for years, and I was finally listening, and it moved me to tears.

I stopped being radiant when I stopped focusing on my purpose. I lost my way for a couple of months. But I'm focusing on my purpose again and nothing will stop me!

The happy tears are back.

I will not lose myself again.

Madison Taskett

I'm a tech growth marketer and indie maker in Austin, TX 🌮. This blog is a daily look into my mind. It's raw, honest, and reflective, and I try to post daily.