Crying in the Walmart Parking Lot

Today, David Dobrik's podcast was on in the background while I cooked. When I'm home alone sometimes I like to listen to people talk because it feels kind of like I'm hanging out with a friend, (anyone else do this too?) Anyway, this one part caught my attention. He said something like,

“I’ve been crying a lot when I finish my videos. I just get so happy, that I start crying. I am just so thankful for being able to do this that I just burst into tears. I can not believe this is my job and I just got to record that video and I get to go do it again tomorrow. This is the best job in the world, I’m so happy.” - David Dobrik

It really rang home with me. I used to cry too, back when I invented dog deodorant back in 2017. I still remember my first purchase, from Amy Hunsucker for $7.49, and I cried for sure. But the memory that I remember the most is when I'd been selling my dog deodorant for about a month and I went to Walmart to pick up supplies for a Christmas holiday dog-themed market I was a vendor at.

I parked the car, went to open the door, and instead just burst into tears. If you've ever birthed something from scratch and set it free into the world, you probably know that feeling, of 'Oh my God, I am making things. I am making things and doing the work and selling my stuff and I'm really making it happen!'

I sat in the car for like 10 minutes just joy-crying in this amazement that I was doing it. No longer was I dreamer, I was a freaking DOER. I didn't know if I had it in me, you know? Before you start putting yourself out into the world, how can you ever truly know? And it didn't matter who was buying my stuff or how much money I would make, what mattered was that I was following a dream of mine, to create a product and sell it.

I can't wait until I'm happy crying over something I've made again. I know sad tears will come along with it, but man, there's nothing like creating. It reminds me why I was put on this Earth.