I'm Stuck

When I really want something, I'm unstoppable.

• I made my own study abroad program at my college (the only student to do so), and got a Brazilian social security card (also the only foreign student I know to do so)
• I negotiated 3 remote job offers in 2016 (none of the cos had ever had a remote employee)
• I worked 90 hour weeks to publish my own Thai street food cookbook.
• I launched 5 products in 5 months while I was learning how to code.

And now I want to tackle the big dream, the one I was too scared to tell anyone. The one where I go for a successful book.

and I will do anything not to work on it.

I don't know what's wrong with me. I feel like I'm broken.

I'm so scared of fucking it all up that I'm overwhelmed and paralyzed.

I'm being hard on myself, and I don't know what to do.

So what I'll do is write here. Until I get through this.